Starting again

Spence went on his first trip to fuel a rocket since his accident. I'm so proud of his dedication to accomplish his goals at work. He truly is a miracle and we have been blessed in so many ways.

About a month and a half ago I purchased the book, "In An Instant" written by Lee & Bob Woodruff. It's a thin book and I'm a pretty fast reader but it was a very emotional read for me. I just finished it yesterday and it was a triumph for me. The book is about ABC co-anchor (ex) Bob Woodruff who was hit by a roadside bomb and suffered many injuries including a severe TBI. Reading Lee's perspective was almost eerie. At moments, our lives paralleled each other and if I highlighted every part of the book that I understood or went through, 85% of that book would be underlined. I've realized in a very profound way that miracles still exist and God is really involved in each of our lives. I also realized the importance of healing through love. Spencer often talks about how he is a different person and will never be the same. That is true, but I think it changed our whole family as well. You can't go through extreme trauma, and be the same person. If anything, I have a lot more compassion and a great appreciation for the simple things in life.

Spencer did a very good job at letting the world know during his fuzzy part of recovery that we were planning on trying for our last child in June. I finally got the green light from my doctor which was a miracle all in itself and I was very excited. A good friend of mine and I decided to start working out and attending Weight Watchers again. I was actually more successful this time and was surprisingly losing weight. I felt better than I had in a long time and it was a comfort knowing that I could lose some weight before getting pregnant. But then Spencer's accident happened and my life was turned upside down. I went from losing more weight and my pants falling off to gaining a ton of weight. That very good friend of mine came up to me one week at church and told me that when I was emotionally ready, she would be there for me again. I have finally reached the point where I feel like I can take care of myself again. So, back to the gym I go and hello to WW AGAIN! It will be a very long road, but just feeling healthy will be a nice change from the last 5 months.